rogueofthecraft

So if you’ve read my last blog, you’ll know that I’ve been away from Buddy Slim for a couple of weeks and not doing too well. Well, I decided to change that today! And what a day!

I did alright this morning. I had some yogurt with berries put into it. It was yummy, though a little different. I forgot my morning snack (which sucked), and because everything was hectic at work, I didn’t get to eat anything until lunch. Had my spinach salad and a yummy sandwich, and got to take a small snap before heading back.

The afternoon was still a little hectic, but I grabbed my afternoon snack (a nice juicy granny smith apple) , and managed. I got home, and was a little hungry… and I knew that if I didn’t eat before I went to workout, I would come home and finish that bag of cheese balls in the cupboard… SO I tried something a little new. I took a couple garlic Melba snacks, and dipped them into some garlic flavored hummus…. and… YUMMY!!!! I only had a few though. Enough to sate my hunger before I left on my walk.

Coming home, I was very unsure of what to do for dinner. I have a lot of choices, and I didn’t want my calories to go over… So I thought of something new. I took a boneless, skinless chicken breast, cut it up,, cooked it in a bunch of spices, prepared a small serving of whole wheat pasta, and got a 1/2 cup of marinara sauce (I had left over from pita pizzas). Mixed it all together (with more spinach on the side), and BAM! It was WONDERFUL! I had a salad, and a yummy Italian-esc dinner that was JUST the right size.

AND, on top of that, I walked 4 miles today! YAY! I’m quite excited about it… and I was VERY excited when I sat down, and the muscles in my leg were twitching. A sign of a good workout!!

Now I just hope tomorrow won’t be busted because of this stupid work thing tomorrow night.

I really need to stop NOT coming here, because whenever I stop, I lose all motivation! It’s very frustrating… And because of such, I’ve been eating so badly and not exercising. Boo on that! This week is a new week, and I’m gonna make some goals to follow…

1. NO FAST FOOD!!!

2. NO SODA!!! (I don’t like diet soda, so no soda for me!)

3. Drink ALL of my water!

4. Exercise either after work or during my lunch break! (Accept Tuesday and Wednesday because of work stuff).

5. EAT BREAKFAST!!!

6. DO NOT BINGE COMPLETE ON THE WEEKEND!!!

7. Lose 2 pounds by next Sunday!

Alright, those seem pretty reasonable. I noticed that even though before I was doing great during the week, I’d get to the weekend and then totally let go and eat a lot of anything and everything… bad bad BAD! And so that slipped into the week, and that’s how it’s been for like… the last 2 weeks… Well actually, last week I had no money so I ate whatever I could find in the house, and once at my Mom’s. Thankfully I got paid on Friday, and so I went food shopping and that won’t be an issue now.

Another thing is, I haven;t been getting enough sleep, so I’m lethargic all day, and I’m so tired in the morning, I don’t want to eat, so I don’t. That just starts the whole day out badly. COFFEE IS NOT BREAKFAST! I need fiber and stuff!

Alright, so tomorrow I will update you all on how things are going with my goals… Wish me luck!

Alright, it’s safe to say I have not been on Buddyslim for ENTRIELY long way, and sicne I’ve been gone, I have NOT been doing good. I have hardly worked out, I’ve been eating FAST FOOD and drinking SODA and now I’m sure I’ve gained back every pound I’d lost…

Great… just great.

What should I do? I find this happening each time I try to change because I get SO frustrated that I’m not losing weight, or changing in anyway, yet I’m changing what I do and how I eat… UGH!

I need help, and the people around me don’t help that much… Mainly because I have a friend that is already DONE losing weight, and she wasn’t nearly as big as I am, and then everyone else in my life is skinny and/or not trying to lose any weight. What am I to do?! I don’t want to give up on my goals, but times flying by and nothing is changing!

I’m so irritated with myself, I’m actually quite upset about it… I feel so lost and lone, ya know? And I know that why we have buddyslim, but it’s freakin’ HARD when I watch everyone around me eat what they want, not workout, and be completely happy with their size 8’s! WHAT THE HELL!!!!!

I’ve lost my motivation, and my focus… I need to get it back, and I’m not sure how. Any pointers? Please help me!!!

So today was not too good. I weighed in for the work weight loss challenge (a bunch of women at work are doing a weight loss challenge together), and discovered that I’m back to the weight I started at (which is good because I gained weight after we started, oddly enough). So that was good. What was bad was that, in running late this morning, my breakfast consisted of 1/2 of a chocolate bar… Fulfilling. And then, I had to drink the coffee at work, and didn’t even get three sips out of the nasty swill before I couldn’t take it anymore! So there I was today…. starving, and tired.

Thankfully, I had my orange for snack… but then what happened? For lunch, the kids had… ‘Dun dun DUN!’… TACOS! And in a sense, I restrained myself a little. I didn’t have a tortilla… But I DID have some of the meat, the Spanish rice, cheese, and lettuce mixed together. It was like a taco salad, which was yummy…. but SOOO bad for me! Of course, I didn’t have just that. I still had my spinach that I eat everyday (it’s my goal for each day, because I know how good spinach is for me).

Afternoon snack was fine as well, had my granola bar, and I was fine… drank all kinds of water, doin’ good. Then I came home, and did something I have never done before! I walked my two miles… and then did it again! I WALKED 4 miles! Sure it took me a little over an hour, but I did it! Hells yeah!

So after that, I come home, and then I run out again… I had to go to Target… a bunch of money later, and I still don’t have any dinner at 9:30! I did the only thing I could do… I made a Smart Ones… The Chicken Parmesan (the only thing other then the pizzas I can stand). I really try to stay away from the frozen meals because I know they have so many preservatives and sodium… But sometimes there’s nothing else you can do. It was late, and there was no way I was cookin’ anything healthy.

So it wasn’t a good day for eating, but it wasn’t a bad one for everything else… agree? I sure do. Night girls!

Dream thin!

Alright… so I’ve got good news, and bad news…

Good news is that I’m losing weight! Lost a total of 9 pounds so far, which is amazing to me! I’m on my way!

Bad news… made some bad food choices today… I started out fine, but at the end of the day… well, made bad choices… Granted, I’m learning from them, but I hate that I made them at all! GRR! What choices? Let me explain…

I had to babysit tonight… I knew this, and so I did my workout during my lunchbreak, and decided that I would make a frozen pizza for the kids, and a lean cuisine pizza for myself… I had it all worked out… Until I got there. Made the pizza for them, and they ‘didn’t like it’ and ‘didn’t want it’. Ugh… So I had my lean cuisine… which is by no mea ns as yummy as the pizza I made for them… So I had a couple pieces of that ON TOP of my own pizza… I log it. Well… it only gets worse…

We all had dessert… Though I by no means pigged out like I used to… I had a single scoop of ice cream with chocolate syrup and some mini M&M’s. And I don’t have stuff like that much anymore…  But with everything else, it brought my calorie count well above 2000… something I HATE. So tomorrow I’m gonna try and do extra walking, along with Friday. Lets hope I can get my fat butt moving to do it, eh?

Other then that, it was alright. I made $100, and it was easy. Even got to chat with my friend a little bit (she called my cell, and no, I didn’t desert the kids, they were in the next room playing on their Wii). So other then the food thing, everything else was fine…

Lets hope for a better day tomorrow.

For those of you who don’t know… I’m a preschool teacher… And lets face it… I make hardly anything. So, being young, and single, I got into the whole ‘babysitting thing’. I know in the long run, this contributed (wasn’t the only cause) of my weight gain. I mean, when you babysit, what do those kids eat? Pizza, sugary snacks, ice cream… You know… kid stuff. They don’t have to worry about gaining weight because their metabolisms are running circles around my own, right? Right…. And since I was there, I just ate with them…. bad mistakes, let me tell you.

So today was my ‘babysitting day’. Two families had asked me to babysit today, and the first job started at 7:30am! OMG! On a Sunday… that’s earlier then if I wanted to go to church (which I don’t because that’s not how I roll)! BUT, I planned ahead… I woke up early… made my coffee with MY creamer and Splenda, and I also had my breakfast at home and packed lunch, and a few healthy snacks, plus a bottle of water. I was ahead of the game.

Everything went well with the morning family… the kids are pretty self sufficent, and I took over one of my own Disney movies which they loved. I had my healthy snack, and then lunch… and then off to the next job….

This job… was not so easy. It’s not like I don’t like littler ones… In fact, I love babies, and littler ones… Just not so much together. Mainly because, kids around 2-3, require just about ALL your attention… and then a baby that’s about 6-9 months does as well. My downfall. In all actuality, the older child wasn’t so bad… he played on the computer and watched T.V., and only needed my help twice… The infant would not be content! Every five minutes the thing was crying, and fussing…. And I was doing everything I could to please it! I fed him, and I held him, I laid him down, played, rocked, changed… You name it, I did it. And then…. something happened.

I was coming down the stairs after changing the child for the second time, and my foot slipped. That’s right, I had an infant in my arms, and a slipped. Thankfully, I did NOT fall forway, but back, thus landing very hard on my now bruised and sore butt, and slidding down about 3 stairs. yes, I managed to stop myself… and though I felt like I’d broken a bone in my butt, that was not my concern. The baby was WAILING.

Of course, I did what anyone would do in my situation, I freaked! I started walking, and shushing, bouncing and soothing, all the while checking the child over to make sure nothing had happened to it during the fall (even though my arms never released it when I did fall). After a few minutes, the crying subsided, and all I discovered was a little red bump on his head where we bumped heads when we fell. Thank goodness.

Of course, even after the child calmed down it took all my wheel power not to break down myself. Could you blame me? I was scared out of my MIND!!! The other came home about 40 minutes later, and by this time the child had fallen asleep, and was resting well up in its crib. And no, I didn’t hide it from the mother… I told her, and she was worried, but I told her he seemed fine. I hope all is well. I think I’m going to call her…. right now.

Alright, I called, and the baby is FINE. What a relief! But to continue on with my story.. I was going to do my walking after babysitting, but after being so shook up, and just came home, had a break down, and then fell asleep. And when I awoke… being so upset I almost… ALMOST caved in to going to a fast food place… but! I didn’t! I had a little Lean Cuisine pizza instead, and added a bit of cheese to it, and now I’m not hungry, and I’m glad that I didn’t cave into my craving for salt and fat.

I know this is a weird blog, but I am kind of venting, and getting my worries out through here instead of attacking that pint of chocolate ice cream in the freezer… Thanks for reading!

Alright…. I know I talked about it in my last blog, and in the blog about LAST Friday night…. it’s a HUGE problem for me! I ate well all day, and then the second I get home…. HELLO FUNYUNS! What the hell is that all about? Have a forgotten my goals completely? To teach that arse a lesson and be the sexy hot chick I know I am?!  And it didn’t just end with the funyuns… no… after I ate my Pita pizza (not nearly as bad as going and getting New York style pizza, and less grease), I ended up having like…. 3 drinks! And trust me… they were full of calories and sugar and fat… ugh… Not to mention, I got the salty munchxies and ate some pita chips with my drinks… GUH!

So, to say the least, I’m a little displeased with myself and how I handled Friday night…. And after thinking it through, I’ve decided that I’ve just GOT to get this under control… So here are some goals for me for the following week…

1.) I will not have any alcoholic beverages alone. If I’m out with friends, I will indulge in the MAXIMUM 2 drinks!

2.) Continue to not drink any soda or eat fast food.

3.) Rain or shine, walk at least 2 miles a day!

4.) Start incorporating weights into workout.

5.) Get to bed NO LATER then 11:00pm during the week!

Alright, so there are my goals… I almost added to eat more at lunch, but that’s not something I can really help. I have limited time, and hate cooking in the middle of he day. Oh well.

Skinny wishes to all!

Alright, I know I had a great time on Friday… which was followed by good times on both Saturday and Sunday…. just with too much food and alcohol. I don’t know what it is… I guess the implanted thought since childhood to have fun and relax on the weekends makes me want to eat whatever I want all weekend. And that’s not good.

I’ll do good and work hard all week, only to blow it on the weekend! WHY?! AUUUUGH! It makes me so frustrated because then I weight myself, and I haven’t lost ANYTHING because I ate crap all weekend! And I know it’s my own fault, which pisses me off all the more!

I’m hoping I can change my ways this weekend…. I have to do a training on Saturday morning (aka, there are nothing but bagels and cream cheese there… bad bad BAD place to be), but I’m making a plan to bring my own coffee, and eat before I go, much like I would with work. Then when I get back from the training, I’ll do my walkingweights, and then get on with the rest of my day. Sound like a plan?

Now what about the eating? Well, it’s hard because I want to eat well all the time, but then I’m faced with friends that want to hang out, and eat badly, and drink a lot of alcohol, etc etc. I might be having them over this Friday, so should I like… make a salad or something? I’m really bad at that kind of suff… Salads. I eat them, not so much make them…. Maybe I can make Pita Pizzas? They’re about 330 a pizza (Which is enough for one), and yummy… That sound good? Of course, I’ll limit myself to ONE drink. ONLY ONE! And then I’ll drink lots of water!

Now, Saturday night… no idea what be happening… so I’ll have to play it by ear… but as long as I’m good in the morning, I’ll be motivated to be good the rest of the day…

I have to continue… I have to reach my goals…. I have to! AND I WILL!!!

So I’ve been having a good time since last night! I ate really good all day, knowing that I had a friend coming to stay the night (not like that, you silly people!), and I even got my 2 mile walk in and a shower before he came! We had Pita Pizza for dinner and then well….

We pigged out. We drank way too much, had easy cheese, crackers, and Puffin Corn (so delicious)… We even had a s’more each! I was so glad I’d said no to the cake they had sitting at work, because last night was worth it! I had a great time with a friend I hadn’t seen in months!

And this morning… I had BAD indigestion… I didn’t realize that my body had gotten used to the good food so quickly, that when I ate the bad stuff, I would be in the bathroom 4 times in 30 minutes!

In a way I’m glad… my body is getting used to being healthy… it’s a good step. And despite last night, I was not unmotivated! I still got up this morning and did my 2 mile walk, and then came home and made breakfast. We had Egg in a Hole (used I can’t believe it’s not butter instead of real butter, and Whole Grain bread), and oranges… I only had one egg to, and after eating that, the orange, and having a cup of coffee and some water…I was totally full! I needed nothing else to be content!

Today I might not eat as well, but I’ll be back on track tomorrow, and keep on walking… I might even add some weight use to my workout when I get home tomorrow… What do ya think?

Later gator!

it seems like it wasn’t this hard before… I always was eating too MANY calories, and now I just can’t seem to get enough. And the funny thing is, I’m not STARVING either. I know it’s not good to not get the needed amount of calories, but (today especially) I didn’t even think of eating more today.

I babysat today, and almost ate pizza with the kids (the frozen, reheated in the oven kind too so full of preservatives), but the dad came in and I got to go on a quick 2 mile walk instead. When I got home, I had a sensible dinner of a boneless, skinless chicken breast, and some green beans (not canned). I even indulged myself with one of those little Smart ones Sundaes, and still my calories are LOW!

In a way, I know it’s my lunch. I eat the salad, and I’m fine, and I don’t want to eat anything else… and that salad is like… nothing in calories. Rich in nutrients, I know, but not calories. So what should I do? I hate to cook in the middle of the day on my short lunch break, and I’m trying to avoid precooked, frozen meals.

I better go to bed now… got a long day ahead tomorrow!

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